Extraordinary

How is that a word?
I mean, what is ordinary?

Everything has been beyond me lately. Everything is a blur.
Suppress. Suppress. Suppress.
Want. Want. Want.
I always need more, it's a craving.


I just feel like a lost, lost, lost soul who fell into the wrong timeline and into the wrong universe.
I need to be out of my mind always.
I feel like I need you, and I can't understand why.
I can't understand why you haven't had a word to say to me since we hugged and you turned and walked out the door.