100's

yes! i went from having no cigarettes to having 2 packs...

i'm very frustrated. i think that if i had a best friend walking the same high school halls that my life would seem a little bit more okay, but the simple fact that i am so on my own when it comes to being at school makes me want to slam every single soul in that high school through the cement wall. i'm really not a violent person like that. everything lately has been putting me on edge. not having enough money, no clothes, no car, no life, no nothing. it's really making me grit my teeth and just hold it all in and i hate doing that. are things really as miserable as they appear to be? and if not, then why does everything feel 100x worse than it actually is?

hopefully this will settle me down...

breath, just breathe. the weather was perfect today.