High, How Are You?

I thought I could do this, but it's a lot harder when the days seem like they last an eternity.


I need to be up , up, up; as up as I can be. I forgot how much I hated doing this and how much pressure it is not to do it and how much I feel like I need it to feel alright about my life. I just need to be relaxed. I'm always so fucking stressed about anything and everything. But someone once told that that I should just enjoy the time I have to myself and don't think too deeply into things and everything will feel alright. I think they have a good point, but I just can't help but to let my thoughts spiral into places I need to bury and forget.